What u see, isn't always d truth.

Do u see me smiling?
Well, thats not what my heart r doing.

Can u hear me laughing?
If i dont then i won't be able 2 stop crying.

Do you see me having fun?
Deep down inside i just wanna turn around n run.

Sometimes, often times when ur under 2 much pain, u just wanna turn around n run.
But along d way, ur haunted.
U 4get, that no matter how far u run. U can never escape it.
Cause however hard u try, u can never run from urself.
n ur feelings.
Deep down inside, theres always this niggling thought.
Bothering u. Making u restless.

It won't stop.
It can never stop.
Until u took a break from ur running.
n face those fears.

But how do you get d courage?
d courage to face the things u r most afraid of?
how do u control ur heart so that it doesnt overcome ur logic?
n finally,
how would u b able to make the most dreaded decision,
even though deep down inside you know that its right?

Hard,
its hard.
its damn hard.
but 4 how long can u just stand there n do nothing?
just wallowing in ur pain n confussion..
not moving 4ward, neither backwards.
u ran,, but ur only running in circles.
with no goals, no finish line.

when?
when?

life is tough,
if u don't get tougher...
well, then thats too bad..
cause life won't wait.