d break up...

hhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmm,,,
i know this is d right choice..
misalnya pun gk putus skrg pasti kedepannya putus..
but that doesn't make it any easier..
rasanya kyk i got something stuck in my throat..
i feel restless..

klo dipikir2,, bykan jeleknya n sakitnya..
dripd bagus2nya.. senengnya byk c,, tp gk nutup rasa sakitnya...
skrg rasanya lega jg..
but it feels weird..
kyk ad yg gk bner..
tp mgkn itu cma perasaan kehilangan aj krn baru putus..
bntar lg jg gk...

im actually quite proud of myself..
i didnt shed a single tear..
n im promising myself not 2 break down..
ud cukup agh nangis2nya dri kmren,,,

skrg time 2 start over..

1 step at a time..

i'll be okay.........

What u see, isn't always d truth.

Do u see me smiling?
Well, thats not what my heart r doing.

Can u hear me laughing?
If i dont then i won't be able 2 stop crying.

Do you see me having fun?
Deep down inside i just wanna turn around n run.

Sometimes, often times when ur under 2 much pain, u just wanna turn around n run.
But along d way, ur haunted.
U 4get, that no matter how far u run. U can never escape it.
Cause however hard u try, u can never run from urself.
n ur feelings.
Deep down inside, theres always this niggling thought.
Bothering u. Making u restless.

It won't stop.
It can never stop.
Until u took a break from ur running.
n face those fears.

But how do you get d courage?
d courage to face the things u r most afraid of?
how do u control ur heart so that it doesnt overcome ur logic?
n finally,
how would u b able to make the most dreaded decision,
even though deep down inside you know that its right?

Hard,
its hard.
its damn hard.
but 4 how long can u just stand there n do nothing?
just wallowing in ur pain n confussion..
not moving 4ward, neither backwards.
u ran,, but ur only running in circles.
with no goals, no finish line.

when?
when?

life is tough,
if u don't get tougher...
well, then thats too bad..
cause life won't wait.

sebel.

kesel BGT.. aku tw koq keadaan slm ini jg gk bner... tp toh aku gk pernah complain.. tp klo kmu boonk gtu kan malah jd kacau.. klo aku jg tw kmu cma boonk bwt ap jg c kmu ngmng kyk gtu?!?!??!

yg bikin kesel tuh aku tw kmu boonk.. n aku gk ngerti knp kmu ngerasa kmu perlu boonk kyk gtu.... skrg aku jd gk tw mksd kmu tuh sbnrnya ap.. sblmny at least i know where i stand,, tho its not where i really wanna b.....

rusak.rusak.RUSAAAAAAAKKKK.

laptop rusak... jd gk bsa OL dhe.. sebel BGT!!!!!!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

trus2 c oma ngirim komp...
tapiiiiiiiiiiii pas dicobain ternyata GK BSAAAA JUGAAAAAA....
GRRRRRR

tp lg dbenerin ma agi c...
awas aj klo msi gk bsa...

agonizing drastic swings....

klo lg jatuh cinta itu pusiiiinnkkk BGT y????
klo lg HAPPY rasany nothing could go wrong,,
evrything seems perfect..
but in an instant smuany bsa brubah.....
ad sesuatuuuu aj yg kejadian,, rasaaaannyaaaaaaa
down,, se-down2ny..... hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

these mood swings are so damn painful..
seems like im about to burst with joy 1 second,,
n d next thing i kno,, i wanna tear my heart out...
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

.TE.O.EL.O.EL

sebel gk c klo loe lg NGAREEEEEPPPP BGT dpt xmx dri seseorang,, tp pas hp loe bunyi n loe ud HEEPPIIEEE BGT berharap itu dri dy,, tp tnyta pas loe liat hp tnyta itu malah xmx dari org yg PALIIINNGGG loe GK MW xmx loe..



astagaaaaaaaaaaaaa,,, gw gk ngerti dhe knp gw msi kepikiran BGT ma tu org... TOLOL BGT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OLD CLICHE.....

NEVER KNOW WAT I GOT TILL ITS GONE...
or at least in this case "wat i could get"

God,, this is real stupid.. but i guess its just my silly mood.. it'll pass in a few days.. hope so.. REALLY do hope so....

ive been avoiding &*%$ ever since 4ever... n now,, wished i hadn't done that... nothing could come out of it.. im certain,, but still.. there's sumtin about *&^%..

anyway,, no sense in wasting my time 4 sumtin unprofitable.. tho i cant say it aint worth while... hhhmmmmmmmm....





anyway... hari ini GINTRE08
it was God DAMN EXHAUSTING and ABSOLUTELY MARVELOUS

bkal kangen BGT ama tmen2 wadel... n latian2 dance yg bkin linu2,, n pegel2,, n sakit2,, tp asik,, seru n kocak jg......

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,,,,,
all in all.. this is a wonderful day... despite falling back on an old cliche.. haha

one is such a lonely number after all...